ripkilltear

2011-06-14T13:17:00.002+08:00

i miss you. your calls in the middle off the night [even though you were drunk], your laughter, your hugs, your everything. it's like someone turned off the lights and suddenly everything seems dull and boring. quite recently, this person, lets say B, said during conversation, i wasn't focusing on my studies, hence the results. i felt like i got slapped, not because i got insulted. because he was spot on right.

someone who had been a part of my everyday life for 3 years passed on quite recently. not that i'm glorifying him posthumously, but he was every teacher's dream student and every parent's dream child. hardworking, studious, etc. it isn't fair, the way he went. but back to the point. it was in the middle of prelim 1, and i turned up for the funeral. many others did not. i don't know if the others scored better than me. this was 1 instance when i couldn't put studies first, not when someone i know for 3 years is no more, and that may be my last chance to see him.

Paul said he was proud of me. studies does not always come first. however, up till the end, he was studying non-stop. i wonder, if he had rested instead of studied, would he had have a higher chance of recovering? paul said, "maybe, but if it were meant to be, then it is". i cried, for one, because i didn't know what to do. here was my best friend, someone 19 going on 20, telling me his experiences. telling me i am never alone. telling me i had his love and blessings. telling me to move on after every set back. telling me he loved me. but that did not solve my problem. how can people's life go on as per normal, after the loss of someone who has been a part of their daily life for 3 years? up till now, when i look at anything that reminds me of him, i feel pain. not the pain of S and J, but real pain. he is never coming back, and we can no longer be friends. paul, i'm sorry to have kept you awake the whole night. but we talked alot, and that got me to understand many things.

SYF may have ruined my prospects of getting a fully subsidised scholarship. that's alright. sometimes, you just have to settle for second best. but this time, i don't think second best will do, not unless someone else volunteers to sponsor me. the fees are still too high, and paul can't stay here any longer. ns has been tough on him, anyone can see that. but from that boy, he has become a man. and i, still a girl. we won't fit in together much longer, and i can only wait while he moves on with his life. i've got o's this year and i really don't know what to do. my heart seems to heavy to focus.

B, if you were me, maybe you'ld understand. it's not that easy to move on when your dreams for the future have been crushed. by your mistake, that's ok. but by others. people who don't know the consequence of their mistakes. my best subject is music. the door to music just slammed shut in my face. how would you feel if you were denied of your birthright? i was brought up and groomed to do that. now someone is telling me i can't because of the mistakes of others. missing cello bow, now missing violin bow. don't quite know what to say.

anyways, paul's gonna leave us quite soon. anyone wanna plan a party for him?

2010-07-31T22:55:00.002+08:00

Hi all. Study session didn't go too well today. Met SOMEONE at bus stop. Happened to take same bus as SOMEONE to the same destination. In the bus, SOMEONE gestured for me to go over a few times. I shook my head a few times. Turns out SOMEONE-ELSE'S mother was on the bus. Problem was that i didn't see SOMEONE-ELSE'S mother, but my guess was that SOMEONE-ELSE'S mother went home and told SOMEONE-ELSE. Oh great. SOMEONE-ELSE, why you go say SOMEONE is my boyfriend? You know got vely BIG misunderstanding that I must clear up? Tyvm. Even " eh hem" has heard about it. He's spamming my phone now. Wants to know what is going on. So SOMEONE-ELSE, you want tell him? Or must i do the telling for your mistake? Damn pekcek already lahh huh?

So met the people for study session. Uncle ahh uncle. Need show cigarette box to everyone? Honestly now I don't mind people smoking, as long as not in front of me. But.... ahh never mind. At least i know what to give you for your birthday, and no "eh hem", he is not so high among my circles as to get a smooch. Only the ladies get that, so unless P wants to de-ball him....

But back to the main point. SS, haiz. test confirm fail, unless, "eh hem", you want to tuition me? But no. Don't want to affect your O's because of some measly test. Let you go to your SAJC or wherever. By the time you read this, I hope things would have already been cleared up, or maybe you can gain some understanding from here....

Oh. Thanks for signing my NYAA Uncle Andy. Somemore on such short notice. Don't worry. Nanchiau no taekwondo. Anyway i old already, leg no more strength to kick, let alone swim. Oh. If need help, can call me. Wan earn more money. My budget super tight without resorting to illegal means.

2010-07-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

look, i don't fucking know what your bloody problem is. you 2 started it first, can? call me smelly. i'm fine with that. but if you want to ask someone else, they'll say that you have no right to. on't try to provoke me. i'm not nice to provoke. i may not look like it but i have high level of endurence for such crap. don't believe? ask aound. i have no qualms about breaking your finger or hand. in anyway you 2 bitches don't even bother to study, so it is more or less wasted on you 2. give it to someone who will cherish it more. back to the point. did i do anything to offend you? ok. maybe you want to count the time in sec 1 orientation when i spoke up for liting and you told me to shut up. fine, since i spoke without asking you. but wait. do you have to be so damn bloody rude to tell people to "shut up"? as far as i can see, NO. so why? why avoid me? saw me on the mrt scared already issit? then why can't you approach me alone? need that fat and ugly sidekick of yours to cover your butt issit? why? hands to small to cover your arse arh? oh wait. you don't even have a butt. too "pretty" and skinny already.
so how now? want to spread your propaganda? fine. i'm used to being disliked. you're playing a game that i will most likely last through. remember, i got one less year than you because you are more lazy and unwilling to work hard during psle. you can play at people, make us feel alone, but you will never manage. why? because i know that even if i don't have anymore friends in this hellhole, i still have people who care more about me at home and outside. more importantly, i have myself and you, no matter how hard you bitch, can never take that away from me.
if you are so stupid as to try, know that i, unlike you, am not a coward, and will not call any backup. why? if this is my problem with you, we settle it like that. not with any sidekicks or related stuff. actions may hurt a man but words can kill. i want to tell you now that i am more or less dead inside, so kill me? want to try to kill a ghost? honestly i can't even feel pain anymore. i will not take revenge or tell teachers. why? because of the word "PITY". this is what i think of you. in correct english, you're "PITIFUL". bet thats a mouthful to you. so what if half the school may be on your side? my main purpose in school, unlike yours, is to study, not pick arguements, look attractive to guys, or get a boyfriend. i am there for a reason and that reason must be carried out. i will now warn you that nothing will stop me and don't you even dare to try, because if i don't SAY anything, that doesn't mean i don't SHOW anything. i will try to keep it in, i'm not merciless, ask my juniors, but if you make me explode, well then.... who knows?
bet this is like reading a dictionary to you and i hope that this will improove your english tremendously and give your english teacher some credit

2010-04-17T13:21:00.002+08:00

i think i'm getting lazier as i age..... posting less and less often..... life is boring as per normal exept for some asshole who thinks he's big. fine, cause i'm not exactly big either. who actually cares? not me. wanna try living life all over again. but i can't restart it. guess i'll have to take it slow from now on..... anyway, larry still sucks. good luck to his poor wife. received comment from that asshole that my legs are like cow legs. better than his chopstick legs that got no shape. walking pile of bones.... watch out for the wind..... see, even i show concern for people i don't like. can't wait for him to be blown away, somehow....
yesterday sucked. my second in long jump got overtaken by someone else.... at least i got third, you may say.... but no. it doesn't work that way for me. so, killed half the day there and the other half in the water..... miss h2o..... wanna go back sometime, but i've got to curb the urge sometime. speaking of curb, i wanna ask the person how many stitches he received. the last time i remembered, i got 6 on my nose. he's should be worse, seeming that the calf was affected and all, but hey, stitches aren't that bad.... even though i still remember parts of mine where the doctor's face is and occasionally the pain..... but it'll pass in time.....
good luck to those people who are still intent on cycling and make sure you look out for them curbs though...

2010-02-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

hihihi..... don't kill me. i know it's been ages since i've even blogged.... saddening..... like hell..... larry lee, my all time favourite teacher is currently dating francis lee [if you want to believe it, go ahead], information provided by rubecca...... kinda interesting that we teens remodel these teachers into more hilarious characters than they already are.... but i mean, if we don't do this, who will? and anyway, doing this makes life sooooo much easier for us when facing them, or else, we'll just shrivel and die..... yeah, the poetic speech, cause i'm bored, it's late at night and no daniel, i'm not in the romantic mood, i never am. i just am happy, or i just am sad. i hate sitting infront......teachers [especially bio.... urgh!!!!] like to lean, touch, rape etc my table..... goodness..... wanna change seat to further back where teachers can't see you smsing your parents during lesson time.....

next, we talk about hair. my hair = epic fail. it's not short, it's not long, and tying it up makes me look like a nigger. i now only have to adopt desmond's accent, and there you have it, an albino nigger. some wierd teacher said i dyed hair...... ken jun and i are in he same predicament, only that i plucked out my hair and showed her the hair colour was even and, therefore, natural. from this source i can conclude some teachers refuse to believe you when you are telling the truth, so therefore, it is better for you and them to tell a lie first o you don't disapoint them. really, i'm fucking pissed.

oh yes. we move on to the next predicament of mine. larry lee may have francis and francis may have larry, but that leaves all of us redundent. who do we have? we have couples, lovebirds, flirts, nerds, jocks, musicians, cleaners, roadsweepers, karang gunis, losers etc, but then again, do we have unity, as what mr rahim said? frankly, and in my sole opinion, we never had. ppl, just take a friggin step back and examine things, we're more or less made up of cliques. for those like me who rather be free roaming particles with no responsibilities or duties to the cliques, we're the lesser race majority, and that puts us into the free-roamers group, even if we are not a clique. sure, you ppl may not like this, but hey, i'm just stating the facts from what i see.... so unity?? my eye.... we're more like the forced united cliques.

spam if you will ppl, spam if you will, but fact is that i've already gotten such crap out of my system, so spam? sure. just tag with your big name if you're not a coward.

2009-12-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

Hello all...... Super bored...... Shanghai was cold, F.Y.I, those who haven claim "insurence", please quickly claim as it's on "while stocks last" now, tyvm.... Broke my hamster's cage :[ poor pud pud..... So from bungalow, now is semi-d or mansionatte, up to you........ Cousin's wedding in 2 more days...... Oh yahs.... Happy birthday wei yang, happy birthday jeng teng...... Gonna deliver her present tomorrow..... Haha....... The candy companies all earn my moolah..... Went jogging, realised my stamina sucks..... Guess the hamster can do better than me...... Reluctant to go back to school to start a new year.... After all, this year was some what....... memorable to me, so....... ieah.......

Anyway, gonna go..... Contact me on hp if there's anything guys.....

2009-11-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

hi guys and older geezers. gonna die soon...... wanna go library tomorrow..... buying books tomorrow too.... so to sengkang!!!! do shopping alr, then we'l say to east coast!!! and shop for his books, then we'll go home, watch pudd fly off her wheel as she 'races off at the speed of light'. yeah hilarious until she shows you her temper....
so, wondering why some ppl are just so deluded. i mean, yes, religion, but don't go overboard with it can?
yea thats all for now

2009-11-09T00:28:00.002+08:00

hi ppl...... Hols are here, and i'm just saying that to remind the RG geeks who are still mugging --" You guys don't take breaks, fine, but don't work yourself to death please.
So, breakdance, had to do the "on-head" thingie, my head super pain. Man, i even want to consider trying it with a helmet.

Oh ya.
Gig. Went exeptionally well, exept that something happened and now they are not on good terms again, but hey! Speak for myself. I'm not on good terms with them either!! But why can't they just let the matter settle? I mean, how many times have we gone through this alr this year? Frankly you two can fight no matter how long-distanced you are but can't you stop for a while? I mean, man, even I get tired of fighting so much, so why can't you two lay it down to rest?

That aside, my cous from cannada is coming down, so joy of joys!!! [as if.....], i'll just have to accomodate them into my already busy schedule, and hope they all DON'T mind my regular disappearance. Well, not gonna be a good holiday, this one..... Exept maybe the shanghai trip....... I want a new skateboard.......

And yes. i saw this SUPER CUTE male syrian hamster in a pet shop. Orange!!!! He is reeeeaaaally adorable can? But i got other commitments...... Ok, not "eh hem", i've got PUDDY!!!! And yes, i'm not seeing him anymore after what happened yesterday. But surprisingly i don't feel much pain, but rather glad i cought him and gave him the sack.........

So, yeah..... Looking out for ppl to go swimming, cycling, rock-climbing and pet-shop hopping with, but sadly most of the sec 3 and 4s are not free, so i guess i'll have to make do of ppl from NC....... But at least got company lah hor......

I really don't wanna sleep, so anyone reading this, PLEASE send me an sms.....

2009-10-24T18:57:00.002+08:00

hello ppl...... exams are over, but results......... ahhh........ study also no use. class position never improove......
ytd, went for bbq. quite ok, sit there and slack, but the ppl make ma do all the work.so a bit dulan, help, then go slack.then, time fly so fast, have to go home......
then today, go wild wild wet [WWW] with benjamin, wei yang, benn, chia wee, kit hong, eurwyn,nelson and cedric. then, me chiawee, benjamin and weiyang take same cab, so we reach first. buy ticket, benn's group still queing so we go in, book locker and qiong shiok. then, we go oohlala. then, CW say he wan sit the slide thing, so i sit with him. wah, i damn suay...... i saw the slide go up, but too scared to scream. wah..... go down cannot walk. so go shiok...... then very bored, so go eat lunch. try call second group, no one ans.... so eat halfway, C appear. say Bn and Nelson wan sit the dunno what slide thing CW and i sat, so go there try to scare them. not working. so sat in the water wait for them to finish, then finish alr go find Bjm. turns out they at professor's playground making ppl's lives miserable, so i join in :] then spray spray spray finish alr, go oohlala. we split into 2 groups of 4..... then Bn go do hardgey..... damn sick. so zhao back to prof pg then go tsunami. teach Bn how to swim. a bit the hopeless..... then slack here slack there, then sit the swing swing swing thing with Bn this time. scream....... wanted to vomit. then go look for the rest..... but go tsunami pool first....... then when we cameback saw the rest at shiok..... then slack slack slack.... go shower, eat kfc, walk to elias mall then homed with CW, CD and N.

2009-09-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

hihihi!!!! today, stupid krishnan say go back school remedial, so go back..... then, the stupid man in black, never turn up...... turns out that he go invigilate sec5 n-level exams........ so what we did there was just do a compre, hand up, go home....... hello, like that called remedial???? i think i can also do that at home, why need to sit in library eng eng qiong???? i got better ways to kill my time you know....... then, some of the n-levels studying, JQ make too much noise, got a bit of hassle, but nothing serious......
qiong finish the damn compre, go hui yang's house with jeral..... bus there with yeow hui...... then reach hui yang's house, go play ds, then play monopoly on his com...... damn boring....... so play play play, never keep track of time, nearly 11.30....... piah change, then all 3 go meet yeow hui, take bus together.......
hahaha...... we on the way almost reaching the bus stop, saw 27..... all 4 qiong, but got there before the bus did..... so endured the 2o++ min journey with 4 kookey guys and myself, but then go halfway, bangalaweehee call and say he reach alr...... so HY and YH panicked!!! in the bus, and then count how many more stops before reach, and then give the reply...... hai yah...... must count out precisely how many bus stops. hello, agar agar can already right???
then, reach, qiong GV, but then, bangalaweehee at wrong mall....... we at TAMPINES MALL, he at TAMPINES 1. so all wait[HY buy ticket] for the bangalah to come, but then go eat lunch, so the 3 guys pangseh me, but when the bangala come, i push dirty job to him....... ^^^ i'm evil..... muahahahahaha!!!!!
ohya!!! ohya!!!! and then, and then, the G-FORCE in 3D nice to watch...... some parts quite funny..... but suay suay bangala sitting next to me;[ eat my chipster sommore........ hmph......

so after that, YH go home, the rest of us go around like lost sheep, the finally, HY, B and i go home......

2009-08-22T14:15:00.002+08:00

Hihi ppl...... Omg B[6C] at my house nw...... Like, rocking the place upside down???? Playing ATL tracks..... Man, i love weightless.... Oh ya. Cried my eyes out and all 4 guys were like, what the heck do we do with her now?? Hahaha you 4 hopeless ppl. I cry just leave me alone,, still tell stupid jokes to try and make me laugh :] Thanks for being sweet joshua, but you really didn't have to act like borat..... Haha, your fake moustache..... Hilarious.....
Realised KAP alot of arguments. OMG. And like, why??? You know how she is, so don't get involved with her unless needed to...... And, yeah, so, you know she spams, so don't reply. Just take it like you didn't see her do anything at your cbox. I mean, it's that easy. So if she wants to type anything, let her type. I mean, hey, it's a free country and as long as she doesn't copy whatever you say, smile. Why take her so seriously???

Erm, yahhh...... So, hope you guys actually chill a bit more ???

2009-08-21T22:12:00.003+08:00

Hi ppl...... CA2 started today........ Grrrrr...... Damn stressed ok??? Was studying science??? Damn confunded by the bloody assesment books??? Anyone wanna meet up to study tomorrow??? Like, at mac's or what??? If anyone keen,,,,,, please contact me........
Damn depressed. Realised that KAP have a lot of flirts. I mean, come on lahh...... First you all critisize him then you all sidle up to her like umkunyas??? What the hell man. You know this type of behavior make you guys seem like flirts a.k.a the cheaper version of playboys??? And you know what???? I think JL was right about you guys. Really, you're selling yourselves cheap. Way too cheap. I mean, talking to them and playing is fine, but touching her face and all that??? Hello, you're in a school, in a class, there are people watching.... Not that i'm jealous. I don't like people touching me, but can't you guys have a bit more privacy, discreetion and self-respect??? Like, when you all play with her, make sure she don't SCREEEEEEEAAAAAAAMMMMM??? And also don't always crowd around her???? FYI i heard a teacher complaining about your "clique" and by the way it was described, it sounded like you guys were doing something illegal??? Then the teacher dragged me in and asked me if you all were always like that, and i actually covered your asses???? WTH man.... next time i get asked i think i'm telling what i see???
so....... yah. more or less and hope our class don't get worse...... i mean, we do play with the opposite sex, but please respect their borders and all that???

fucking sow you think that you can get away with everything??? you good for nothing. only something. you good, for nothing. don't understand???? look at the way you copy ppl and act cute. you can copy people we cannot copy you arh??? you cannot pain we pain arh??? hello, open your eyes. who are the bigger bosses here??? not me, but at least respect them can?? they beat you up i cannot interfere, and trust me i have no mood to interfere also. think ppl nerd or act gangster arh??? ppl never show colour does not mean ppl scared. i don't get angry in front of you does not mean that i patient i tell you. think you dua pai, think again. i beat up more ppl than you can count. in anyway, how original are you?? lets count the words in your vocabulary.
1. fuck
2. jackass
3. faggot
4. fagg
wah. 4 words you came up by yourself or copied elsewhere??? i know the rest you using are those you copy from me. ppl may be delinquent but ppl smart that you fattty brain and irritating personality. say you what??? top student in shanghai. don't bluff me. i've seen top before and you are the cream of the crop, from the bottom. don't like that right???? that's how ppl feel when you copy them. you think you copy ppl can get away with it??? think again. you got no manners, and please look in the mirror before you call ppl bitch or ahlian because your no better but worse than we are.

wash your smelly mouth before i wash it for you asshole

2009-08-14T18:46:00.002+08:00

Hello ppl...... Superr sians and stressed and etc..... Hahahaha found out that karyn and dian wei stead. I mean, omg??? The last thing i remember about that guy was that he is a total fucking jerk???? Karyn!!! how did someone as nice as you get messed up with HIM????
Oh ya. On my playlist, we [B6] are covering the newer songs??? And i'm supposed to sing some??? Damn...... But at least i don't have to wear dress or do something stupid while singing??? Heng ahhh...
And then...... Today in geog.... Stupid LuPrecia. she ask where the plantation is. I say in the picture. Nothing wrong right??? I mean, she ask where it is. Not which part of the picture it is in, so my answer is technically correct, and i get a scolding for answering a questiion correctly. How amazing. Then when i kana scolding, that fucking gey alan go laugh. Eh jibai, not scared kana beaten up issit??? Think you gey i scared you arh??? You think Singapore got law against geys getting beaten up arh??? Get out of lalaland man..... Sekali kana raped by lesbos i pretend never see i tell you
Ok, more or less what i wanna say....

2009-08-13T18:02:00.002+08:00

Hihihihi....... I know i nvr tagg and linkk ppl,,,, So i'll do that after the post then the "person"can stop nagging...... Hahaha...... No funny.
Today....... Ez-link not enough money, so walk home from compass [btw i stay in hougang so is quite a big achievement???]. My god.... Walk halfway kana headache but because wan qiong home....... Ahahaha.... Continue walking on and on and on and on and on until i reach house. Gosh...... 1 1/2 hours spent "exercising"??? My muscles must be tone liao man...... Imagine macho me...... Then i can call benn [not his muscles. HIM] tumour. Hahahah.... Maybe i can even take on sow??? Wouldn't that be good..... We'll be rid of that fucking pig then....
And then in class..... JQ wanna be pimp when he grows up.... Hilarious man...... I mean, imagine that he's in geylang, argueing with his customer over a "spring chicken", as K'ster puts it, then he loses and runs home to where mummy is....... Wierd.....
Okokok. Enough talk on pimps and mummies of theirs. going to be damn boring if i go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on until lets say..... 90 years later???
So..... Bye bye??? And check out some of the tags k??? Guys might find some pretty girls.....

2009-08-11T18:29:00.002+08:00

Hi ppl........... K'ster today, not in good mood. first thing step into class make ppl do 10/20, all because the litter near their seat not they throw wan. wah, i must say first arh, i very shocked/ stunned/ whatever crap by his 'FAIRNESS'. Most fair [not white arh....] person of the century. My role model. Hello lah, uncle. If the paper is sow throw wan, and daniel throw back under his table, it's called fair. Too scared that sow bend down and butt crack becomes more obvious arh??? Why worry so much??? It's not like you're going to see it right??? And in anyway, why treat the sow so well??? Think he model student arh??? He model student i Ms Singapore alr lahh.... Your back turned only he first one shoot vulgarities lahh, hello. Still give him chance, then everytime he give trouble you give second chance, then when we give trouble you immidiately kill..... Fair, you say you fair??? 1st thing; You black, not fair. 2nd thing; This is called biasness. Don't worry, gangsters also have their own sense of fairness. Not all ahlians are bimbos as you presume them to be. For all you know one might be smarter than you.
And then, K'ster give us same compre to do today again. Look, you gave us this compo 2 times this year alr. Then, on 1 fine day, all of us see our old friend again. I know, seeing old friend is very nice feeling, but if see too often, become sian of your friend, like that how??? To all reading now, one more time i see that compre, i will tear it up piece by piece. Hello, ppl been doing that piece of shit since p5??? You not sian i sian ok,,,,,, p5 do. P6, do. Sec 1, do. Sec 2, do do, then, when we sian, one more do come out. Hello, not funny you know.... You die of heartattack from being a cheekopek, i die of heartattack from doing the same compres over and over again. I know that it is good to recycle, but 2 things should not be recycled. 1st thing is toilet paper. print on 1 side only, not 2 sides. 2nd thing is homework. Recyle homework lah!!! We students just memorise answer can alr.
Then music lesson, music test 45/55. Damn depressed. Super ton of careless mistakes...... Never mind. Next test, i sure do better. Aft music, go assembly. Then aft assembly, go 2E slack. Waited w. erica. Damn, her class damn fun. Must find a way to transfer there...... Like, tell school council everytime i see sow i feel like going back to being a delinquent again??? I certainly hope it works.....
Okkk...... Stop crapping alr...... I know i sound like an ahma, but who can help it when it's K'ster you're handling???

Bloody fucking sow. don't think you fat i scared of you. the most you can do is drool and act like a pig. no sense of originality. wan copy ppl's ideas, then just admit. you think you handsome??? don't try to bluff me. want to ask girls out??? please spare yourselves the embarressment. i mean, don't ashame the girl, with that ugly face of yours. call me bitch, you're good for nothing. i bet if you go for singapore audition, all the judges walk out blind. oh yah. forgot to mention that debate hates you. so why don't you do us a favour and go back to shanghai???

2009-08-04T18:53:00.002+08:00

Went for scoliosis check up today at 3.30pm............ Qiong home-ec while waiting for the queue. Today's queue quite fast compared to the past times that i was there...... Got x-ray...... Wanna say thanks to this guy from maris-stella high. Told my mum that the lockers can be used...... Or else she has to carry my uniform, bag, home-ec books and newspaper while i take x-ray...... Very quickly over..... Few seconds, come out again..... I like the robe that we have to wear [maris-stella guy will know what i am talking about since he was wearing one too]. Very comfortable. However, we have to remove all our underwear exept the one below. Other than that, quite ok..... So, killed about 1 hour plus there??? I dunno..... Scoliosis on the lower part of my back??? Looks quite severe, but i think it'll get better. Slants to the left..... It's also damn gruesome looking..... Can see all my vertebra??? X-rays are COOL!!!!
Kro's braces will be out next year..... He's on waiting list since 2006???? Mine last year than dentist say 70/80% have to put..... Gosh..... Must try to synchronise appointments to parents don't have to send kro and i to the same place 2 times.... Save the earth and petrol..... ^^ also save time..... Only prob is that me being careless and lazy, i might lose my braces somewhere wierd like europe??? $3000+ wasted..... So..... Yeah. have to endure 4 year wait on waiting list too???? Kinda unsure man, but for nice teeth, you've got it babe........

So yeah........... End of post.... Still thinking 'bout music test???? Damn bloody careless and forgetful..... Wasted 2 points...... Haix..... So damn depressing can????

2009-07-31T21:05:00.002+08:00

hi everyone.............. 2 weeks since i posted....... not the longest , i reckon..... literature really boring after a while........ to SWW, look, i'm sorry for what happened and would really like to turn things around, but somehow both of us are just going to have to know that that's not going to happen no matter how hard we want it to happen, so it's just going to be wishful thinking on both our parts, which also means that both of us will not be able to move on in our lives unless you acknowledge it. i'm really really sorry.......
to bewil, DON'T SO SLACK!!!!!!!!!!! LESS 1 PERSON IN BAND STILL WANT SLACK SLACK SLACK....... XIAO ARH????? START WORKING HARD LAHH!!!!!! YOU GOT O'S, THEY GOT A'S THEN I GOT WHAT????? I GOT XAI ARH?????? STOP SLACKING LAHH!!!!!!!!!!
ok, end of post. am really disheartened after posting....... stuuuuupid ppl..........

2009-07-17T20:33:00.002+08:00

hihi ppl!!! vr long nvr use com, and will try to use more often, but so happens that i'm damn busy now, and everytime i use com i think of him...... :[..... yepps bewil, S and i broke up so damn long ago, and i'm still thinking of him. shame shame......

I HATE SCHOOL!!!!! I HATE SOW!!!!! KRISHNAN [MAN IN BLACK], READ THIS FOR ALL I CARE YOU SUCKAR!!!!

2009-07-13T21:47:00.002+08:00

hello wierdos reading my bloggg......... don't stalk me pls..... i'm getting a phobia of ppl who read my blog........ yes, it's damn scary when ppl "stalk" you on blogs....... so, keep it short and sweet :] pudding!!!! wanna see the picts, ask me PERSONALLY. don't yell out that you wanna see the picts 'cause in front of ppl who don't know what you want to see, the word "picture" means a lot of things.....

yeah..... for the ppl who wanna add me on facebook, pls tell me first, and not just add.....
more or less wieros, bye bye....

--------- LONG LIVE SOW ACTION PARTY

2009-06-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

hihi!!!! vr busy taking care of my new baby..... bought her ytd, and she's damn sweet but shy...... i know dan, but i'm not willing to trade her for joshua, so forget it. ok will post picture of her later. now tell you who i have to thank.

CAGE: shimin

BEDDING: ma&pa

FOOD: ma&pa

BATHING SAND: ma&pa

WATER BOTTLE: me.....

and so, yeah... tells us how much i contributed to pudding's house.......goodnight.

2009-06-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

hello ppl.... back from europe trip like, damn long already ok, so for those who don't know, shame shame........ wentto vivo, plaza sing, then compass with nat and shimin.......scout for hamster stuff^^ wanna buy one but luckily never buy..... plaza sing sell 1 for $10 but vivo sell for $16....... so a bit lost at plaza sing because want to buy but scared kana scolding. kor!!! i know you won't stick up for me, so i never buy!!!! luckily too, because papa say he know a pet shop sell $4 hamster but also because the shop owned by his guy's sister =.=" pa, that's called cheating. i went to nearly everywhere to look, and then you say you can get cheap for me..... haha, but remember i want female hamster and bring me along to choose in case you porposely choose a very fierce one to disturb me..... ^^ your daughter know what you will do one ok??? no more playing dirty tricks hor...... tsk tsk, bad pa..... so, yah. went to see cage, but never buy. thanks to shimin and her family...... gave me their old cage...... so now left bedding and food. pa say he sponser food, so i guess i'll do bedding and the hamster ball unless someone is willing to give me??? o.O i doubt so.....
haha, mee pok, in mrt i said something about K'ster.... kor's slang for krishnan, but i think it applies to his extended family too????O.o not sure lehh...... so, pointed out that poor man on mrt and said " eh, K'ster over there" and you were like, "huh? what is K'ster???" then when i say ans, you laugh like never hear before. ok, yes. you never hear before, so how can i blame you.....

in anyway ppl, want to see the pictures, cotact me PERSONALLY. i will not entertain any requests in the cbox. night night....

2009-05-31T11:26:00.003+08:00

hihi ppl, Vr long nvr post..... Exam results not so good..... Feeling depressed...... And that stupid swine go pass his stupid swine flu to 4 ppl in sing. Damn you lahh cheebai bastard. Say i 99% water no brain no anus and call me bitch right??? I tell you this. You think you're so good??? I 99%water better than your 100% fat. You think you're shuai? Think again. In anyway, look in the mirror lah, hello. If you shuai, the rest of us all god and goddess already. You think everyone in class love you? Think again. You think you're so good? Think again. Don't act and say that in your previous school a lot of girls like you. Frankly, i think they only want to bootlick you because you are rich or your father is the principal. Oh yah. I'm soooo sorry. You don't even have a father. You also no mother. Is you sooo poor thing stuck in orphanage right? Wah.... How i pity you. I wish I could not help you. Want to publicly humiliate me? I tell you something. Not so easy wan. You think i can pain you cannot pain? No way. You might have been the prince of your school, but in nan chiau, you are nothing. You are as insignificant to our class as a piece of shit in the toilet bowl. You wan act pro??? Go join drama club. They don't need you in debate anyway. Right. Sorry. I forgot again. Drama doesn't even want you. You think you innocent, think again. In anyway, if you are innocent, you won't need to act. Hah. Wait. I forgot. You're not good at that. You can't even act. You're only good at making people feel pissed off with you, saying "burn in hell", earth-shaking, being k.p.o and being cheated by people. Yep, i said it. Being cheated. You think the people in our class so kind to be your friend? Please lahh, our class, as i am happy to say, are full of gold-diggers, and you so naively fell for that and bought more than one of them in your company. And yah, my ex went overseas. I don't need you talk cock to me about long distance relationships. You think i still noob when comes to these type of things issit? I happily interrupt you from your dreams that i got more experience than you have in relationships, so you jolly well know your fucking limit.

I really don't care if any of the teachers see this, but for our dear mr. sow [applaud people, applaud!!!], the next time i get reallly angry with him, nan chiau will get to see who i hang out with when i have time.

2009-05-21T20:06:00.002+08:00

hihi peepo!!! exams over and i'm not having enough fun after one day of crazy activity..... actually, i hope today can lasy forrevva!!!! hahaha jkjk..... like that then i cannot move on with life and will be forrevva stuck at "today"...... mind you that wouldn't be good because cannot go back to school on monday and shout at teachers..... sigh.... it's going to be a long weekend without them to yell at...... starting to get the hang of exams, and then they are over.....

2009-04-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

hi hi peepo!!!! yaya.... got alot of things gion on, and NO!!! i DON'T like kennard can??? like, wth lorh...... you ppl go on and on and on and that sounds worse than the old woman???
ya....got silver for s.o and damn bueh song can??? i mean, we tried our best and all but...???? also very diulian because other ppl instruments so good ours not that good??? and damn RGS!!!! their SOOOO good??? intimidation while we were backstage??? i was like, PRESSURE!!!! PRESSURE!!! oh hack.... cried when i received results. like, just screwed up my face and cannot take it anymore, so.... yah. but i'm ok now, really ok.... i mean, it was already done right??? so change results simisai??? tkgs also get same results...... poor andria.... :]
heheh.... tomorrow got string outing at east coast..... i wanna play mah heart out..... last year for seniors like, isabel, jean and charmaine, so.... yah. the pro ppl are gone and we can barely fend for ourselves and have juniors alr???? how can cope??? pity the next sectional leader.....
on facebook!!! anyone wanna join????

2009-03-19T18:41:00.002+08:00

hihihihi.... skipping a lot of posts these few days...... a lot of reasons, but now's not the right time, so start with de post first
monday, go for kisinang's el remedial..... like, COMPULSERY???? i know my ang moh not as good anymore but, wtf??? then after that go home play piano and wait for cut-hair-auntie to come.... in the end nvr come say she kana stuck in bedok, so went for the swimming flyer thing....
andria, nvr say u nt going..... sabo me and charmaine alone there with seetoh and the other guys and gals that we dunno..... then lunch on uncle thomas and uncle andy. just wanted to say a belated thank you to them even though we were not paid for giving out flyers... heheheh..... but giving out flyers- thats where the real fun started.... so because flyers so fun, went for wushu late and my shoes and socks were drenched by that time, so warmed up BARE-FOOTED. then, yanyi and lina go step on my feet. frankly i think they jealous i got such beautiful feet, so keep stepping right, you 2??? so, lian,lian,lian, until around 5 plus?? then have the bonding thing..... skipped the captain's ball thing because of the bi-shou thing, but joined in when they played fishnet. wanted to purposely get caught then can go disturb guiquan by holding his hand^^, but they go catch tiancong instead, and because shy and don't want to hold tiancong's hand, i had to ruin the plan..... than there's one time nearly kana cought but thanks to jiaolian, escaped..... was the 2nd last to get cought, but they still want to recatch me. eh, bully lah you guys, pick on a small sotong like me, i get angry squirt ink at you all then you all know........ nahs... jk only

tues.... nothing much..... just string???? but wed, morning went for kisinang again. wake up late so nvr tie hair but got go there tie.... i mean, come on. i don't tie hair really that bad meh??? than, chiionged for string 'cause kisinang's hw held us up. so we missed the bonding thiing etc and when we went back had to PRACTISE. omfg. it's mr chua there few days, and it's TERRIBLE. something like qin shihuang. had buffet lunch were the chocolate e-clairs were amazing??? ate a lot. skipped an hour of wushu 'cause of string. slacked a lot there......then the bonding, because they so engrossed in captain's ball [i managed to knock the ball out of jiaolian's hands btw], we did not have time to play fish net.... damn...mum rushed there, picked me up and went home to prepare for concert. not that i'm performing, but have to shower etc one right????
concert quite ok. got 2 shuai ge there. ^^ i think they are twins or bros??? not sure. don't know them well.... so, rushed out at the end of the concert and went home

finally, today. went for the science crap in the morning and was late for string. chua again. only good point of packed lunch was that their chicken was really good. other than that, soso.
well, more or less what happened.... want more??? come ask me on msn

2009-03-14T21:20:00.003+08:00

went for the international school thing for wushu yesterday because angsian asked me to pei herrr, so fine, went, and got a biggg shock. the ppl there damn zhai. all their pattern, super amazing. so skipped string and stayed there. free ride with e coach to kovan where he was mr. blue. dropped a hint, but if you don't understand, don't worry. lots more ppl don't understand too. so, ate kfc, walked around etc etc, bought a dogtag, watched the thing, blahblahblah, and went home. quite fun actually. will cut hair tomorrow, so look out for me....

2009-03-03T16:14:00.002+08:00

end of CA!!!! arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe..... yesterday during history accidentally kicked the teacher's butt..... was like, omfgomfgomfg i am going to tio detention.... but he just make some wierd noise and run far far. yan yi and i were laughing??? dunno, but it seemed so funny to her, so laughed along..... getting boredddd.... at least he stopped coming, but for him2, i dunno how to throw him off. not that i hate him, he's quite ok, but not my type. i mean, come on!!! how in blazes will i fall for you??? like, give me some time??? and in anyway already like someone else, but he in na..... ah!!!!!! sec4, so got one more year to see him~~~
going to next topic-- krishnan. i realised i'm like his unpaid secretary. every piece of work, "hui ni, give out." or" each person one piece" and i'll be like, "oh ok." even when i have no time. damn.... i should try to do something about this.......
next--- chow [jibai]^^ added that for fun. got names for every teacher, so you guys better watch out..... muahahahahahhh~~~ ok, cut the crap. [maybe] gonna cut hair, and if i do, wanna retain or layer my fringe, so hope i don't get caught.....
lastly...... wanna sayy bye bye to him because will be thelast time i ever say something about him.

2009-02-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

ellos to the rest of "mole's equation"..... hahaha.... FYI it is sotong+ octopus= seaweed- fish x tortoise.....hehehe..... mac is tortoise.... serves him right for being such a cheekopek......
ok. for the k.pos who bet money on me, you all loose lahh.... i never turn left, i never turn right. only jake win money...... good job jake. very good job. we now have a professional gambler in our midst. wow. hang on to your wallets people....
oh ya. play guitar until got blister. hands itchy until peel blister. blister peel until now like dunno what shit. regret peeling..... lols ^^ predicting scott's reaction of :[ ] where his jaw falls off >< sorry~
school sucks.... iea kisinang very irritating.... the ppl seating around me will know what i mean.... hehehe.... got the chinese caligraphy teacher as chinese teacher.... like, -.-" no need to study..... fail chinese anyway..... hack lorh..... got kisinang, lady caligraphy [><] and a lot of wierd wierd things.... eeyeh.... yucks... 2f got 42 ppl.... suckie...

2009-02-06T15:56:00.002+08:00

wondering if what i did was right. cut again today. don't give a fuck since no one gives a fuck for me. like, hell, where were you when i needed you the most??? no where to be found. frankly i also dunno why i even knew you in the first place. you not happy come find me. happy already forget that i exist. ppl talk to you it's ok that you don't reply, but you don't have to pretend you dunno the person and talk back. fine if you think i am your pillow. fine if you hate me. fine if you talk back to me but why must you cause trouble for the othrs??? they sitting for o'level this year. they fail i will not say is they never study. i will say is yoou sabo. i am damnbloody fucking feddup with covering for you. you dare to do it, you dare to own up for it. i don't hate you. i just want to know why. i sms you, you don't want to say. post on your blog say i harass you. i know what you want but you cannot always have your cake and eat it. sooner or later will not have anything. i got tell you already but you still don't want to listen. i really dunno. your problem can be my problem but if you don't want, your problems will be all yours. i can handle my own problems. either way i know you hate me but why go backstab and badmouth??? so brave of you. i'm so proud. if i know that this type of coward still exist, i don't even want to know you anymore. you hate me, just say it. don't need to use these type of thing. i really dunno what to say. i don't blame you for being a coward. i blame myself for being the idiot that i was to not see through you. i don't have much to say alrready, but i just want you to know. the higher you rise, the greater your fall. don't remember me. remember that sentence. i think it will serve good. for the record, next time you got problem, don't come crying to us. you're alone now, and you will always be untl you learn something.

2009-01-23T15:57:00.002+08:00

hiya ppl.... i know damn long never post, but that can be explained.... string got call back on saturdays...... sucks.... mr chua so naggy..... over there say this say that..... lol... at least mr lim still funny..... IT lesson on wed had to make some idiotic comic... mr jensen sng, sorry for kicking your leg, etc etc, but i must mooove on to the next topic.
guys, i know some of you will be a bit busy with your respective ccas, work or problematic relationships with your gf or whoever who is causing you all this problems, but PLEASE DO NOT SPAM my phone. for one, i'm not a councellor. for two, at least you don't die in your sleep can already. for three, i really don't care. i go for councelling, not the other way round, so please know who to share your problems with because sharing them with the wrong person just spells more trouble.
ok, kro's saying i'm being random, but frankly i think he just wants me to moove out of the com, so g'bye to ppl out there if you all happen to read this, but if you don't, i'm not going to spam your phones with all this garbage from my extremely random mouth

2009-01-10T17:07:00.002+08:00

ellos ppl... damn sorry so long never post..... either too busy or too lazy..... kk. got bad news for bewil. because this year got syf and wushu competion, i have to go gathering less often, so if you all don't see me, don't panic. i am somewhere else doing something, so smile please!!! hahaha. getting random again.... >< gonna end post now.... bbs

2008-12-28T18:22:00.003+08:00

yay.... back from malaysia..... never buy much..... 1 pants and thats all. forgot to buy school shoes... ohya. frazer's grown to a very bigg doggy...... ok, not very big but considerable. apparently he ran away for 2 weeks before he came back, but that was waaaaay before we went. so.... when we arrived he was infested with ticks.... showered him on day2 only..... cousins all damn scared of him..... dunno why 'cause he's so cute...... but too bad grams don't like him.... either way is his fault because he likes to jump on people and trust me people, she won't let no one jump on her without using her slippers to whack the unlucky person upside down. how do i know??? heheheh.... not telling in case some of you laugh.
awana was ok, but after going to japan genting seems a tad too boring. oh whee..... sat on some rollercoaster. lol, go so damn fast spects nearly fly~ i know dan will imagine me tottering around in a very blur world....... ^^ yay....gonna do some updating......

2008-12-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

bored. went to tm with mum, aunt, and 2 smaller cousins.... lol, i so tall compared to them. asoph 1 year my junior and 3/4 my height. adriel around he's height but 1 year younger. a bit paiseh so tried to hunch. mother saw and nagged. ate dinner at the damn foodcourt. dammit, i burned my bloody tongue so damn many times when drinking the damn soup. in case if anyone out there is wondering why i keep typing damn-stuff, my aunt forbids anyone to say it in her presence. so just now i tolorate, now i release. at least i not gonna commit suicide lah, but to forbid the use of swear words, :[#]
haha. nothing to say already. went to isetan bought a pair of 3/4 jeans. lol. go there try here try there. gonna give up soon. i mean, wallet is jeans material, pants is jeans material, gonna buy a pair of shoes that maybe have jeans material, so i'll become the unofficial mascot for jeans. wah!!!!
haha. over-reacting alr. gonna die from lack of sleep soon. wheee~
see, crazy already.... lols, go sleep le.....

2008-12-10T23:35:00.003+08:00

went outtoday with ruth and lynn to compass. go buy the damn "cok soo". dammit, none of them wanna go hougang tell me what they think of that damn bag. tired of kro's opns. starting to get pissed with him. skipped swimming today. :S not feeling well. some people know why cannot go..... but don't think of asking them bucause they won't betray me wan...... see the power of sotong for yourselves!!! muahahahah....... ok that was just plain crazy.
wanna go bugis again but dunno who to go with. certainly not dan. go there make so much noise in the end everyone stare. sabos lorhs. ppl think he my boyfriend sommore...... lols i not so no taste wan ok??? i mean he looks wierd when he doesn't wear his spects. like crawl out from longkang cannot see clearly. idiotic, retarded, you name it, but fine lah. don't deface ppl on the blog. add in a few good things about him. he very funny, sporting, and quite ok larh. at least when he don't anyhow say wierd things to kro.....
tired alr!!! go sleeep this damn day off.

2008-12-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

been getting lazy. cutting off blogging etc. thinking of taking a loan from my dad to get a new school back. also want shoes, but need to think through first. sheesh. lost. but i can't go up to people and ask "excuse me do you have a map to what i'm thinking? i think i'm lost." 'cause that would just seem wierd. arh. wish can go malaysia sooner. miss the longan at petaling street. hehehe.... gonna go genting get high. wheeheheheheheee~ hahaha. lols. crazy already.

2008-12-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

boring day today. will go to malaysia on the 20something of december. praying hard to celebrate there so can buy a more expensive cake and much more.... ^^ lols. missed the cheesecake for my mum's birthday [late] last year. 80.95rm. found that on some website or magazine. couldn't find any source for singapore to compare prices. and since recession is coming, i guess its best if we try to save some money as life is unpredictable as unpredictable can be. much much deeper than the deep blue sea. lols. these few days been getting lazy. eat and sleep everyday. sheesh. playing batminton every night even though there's no court. camillia's coming up to the den more often. learning guitar and more tips of stitching from my mum. at least she seems more at ease. my mum's all out on being a teacher. cam stayed til 10.30+ today. walked her all the way up to her house, walked back alone. haha. not that i'm not scared that someone with poor taste will sotongnap me and i'll never be found again, but that i'll be stuck in a lift and die[touch wood!!!] of boredom as i didn't bring my damn phone. so much for long-term memory. gotta bunk!

2008-11-28T20:57:00.004+08:00

went for wushu bbq yesterday. shiok man, i tell you. damn fun. met at hougang interchange.... walked to angsian's house, took a bus to dunno which stop, then took bus 55 to east coast. took damn bloddy long.... made some crappy jokes in the bus.... dropped off some point quite far from east coast. walked there via underpass. saw an abandoned ntuc trolley so took that and put the stuff inside. didi some "drifting" with the trolley but nearly fell over, so deceided not to. walked to the underpass and through it to the part of east coast where they offer wake-boarding. walked to pit 54E. not exactly walk there. had to call angsian to find out where they were, so she ran to the foodcourt to bring us there. dropped the stuff there and went to the beach to soak my feet. threw tons of stones and a few rocks into the sea with douglas, louis[not sure how to spell it] and tiancong. was quite fun. went back up to the shelter to slack. ended up playing pass-the-parcel. didi not kana penalty. heng ah..... so after a while, went back to the sea again, build sand-condo and play water bombs that was the most fun. threw plastic bags as the bomb. i used the ice-lemon tea bottle as my faithful water-gun. lols. lend to tiancong to fire at douglas and louis. that was anything but boring. dipped into the sea with angsian, derek, douglas, tiancong and a few times louis. louis was like, "not entering the water", so douglas and tiancong kinda threw him in? i dunno. but was fun. supposed to go back up on land but had to find someone's missing shoes. got buried in sand with douglas. i was buried up to around my collar while douglas was buried up to his hips. hymph. jealous. tiancong ran up and down like a mad man to pour water on us. junchao took the photos. unburied myself and went up to shower. derek started the fire while we showered so when we came back ther was already a small fire. shiok. did some fanning and feeding the fire. rustic. all the memories came flooding back. shook them off as douglas tried to dry his pants on the grill. tiancong said something that i didn't pay attention to about louis calling himself tua pek gong [sorry!] so kept on fanning until derek came back. barbequeing started. something funny happened. one of the seniors roasted her share of squid and when she asked us if "anyone saw the sotong" douglas replied in chinese "neh, sotong so big you still cannot see". referring to me. fine..... i laughed along. barbequed until1030 or 11. parents came and picked me up. miss that place. will go back to that exact same pit sometime soon. wish i could replay yesterday over and over, make it last forever for all the fun we had, all the things we did and played, but we can never do that. still, there's photos courtesy of junchao. laugh and enjoy but don't criticise.

2008-11-24T18:59:00.002+08:00

realised that damn long never post..... lols.... went for dan's chalet on sat. havoc xia. like crazy like that. then, as always, truth or dare. wtf. ask me same thing. cannot help it. they only ask "rin, dare." so was like, oh, ok. this time they ask me THAT about joshua to spite dan..... he was giving me the puppy eyes..... pretend never see^^ but never lah, in the end. stupid dan damn heng..... got drunk. 5 cans of beer, 6 cups of wine etc shared between bewil. headache, but still managed to pull through lah..... a bit gong when i slept. woke up at around 12 on sunday. handphone had around 50 or 60 miss calls and 80+ sms. all from yours truly. like, fuck!!!! think i hotline arh..... dunno how many people they dared to do that..... stupid and crazy. never die before...... ^^ no lah. not so bad....
have a wushu bbq on thursday..... not sure if i wanna pon 'cause sat have fearless bbq..... ><><
enough of my random crap. will post tomorrow

2008-11-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

went string chalet. to tell a lie it was good. to say frankly, it was ok. to put it bluntly, it was a total disaster. yep. no games [excluding the tai di we played], a very polluted beach, lack of food supplies, muddy grounds and etc. only thing i enjoyed was the tai di on the breakwater. very calming. better than doing yoga. relaxing..... ah....... but tai di play because no more games and that "banlak" not many ppl there know how to play [talkin' bout the ppl we asked to play]. then, some ppl try to be funny. come up with asshole tai di. first round deceides who is the winner. first person to complete is the king. second is queen. third is commoner. fourth is roadsweeper or something like that. last but not least, the asshole. second round that time, asshole give king 2 of the best cards. king give asshole 2 of the lousiest cards. roadsweeper give queen 1 of the good cards. queen give roadsweeper 1 of the lousiest cards. commoner deals the cards. they play until damn noisy. from pit all the way to breakwater, can hear perfectly what they shouting. "wah!!! you......." "no!!!! you cards........" sian. dunno what to say

2008-11-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

twisted my right foot today during wushu...... jumped and landed wrongly. like crap. just now swim halfway leg pain so was struggling in the water. hoped no one noticed since was relay....^^ hehehe.....
got diagnosed by a lot of ppl for funny stuff...... someone said ovesick, someone said heartbroken, someone said i'm just missing him. asked someone if i should patch. got no where near. feddup. kro nags liked an old woman. ^^ random....... lawls.
either way, up down left or right, i just want you to know that i miss you and am sorry for the things i've done

2008-11-11T15:02:00.003+08:00

been getting an empty feeling inside me lately. like i forgot something important..... guess i'm not used to being so damn relaxed.....
went cello today..... never practise and was like, erm........ then ah!!!!!! when they were playing.... had to play.... made a mess of the piece, yes i know....... ppl play here i play there ppl play there i play here..... shit...... arsey cello..... then mr lim so funny.... cracked so many jokes.... he said dunno what karang guni walk pass.... actually someone from CO's dizi [if i'm not wrong with the name of the instrument] blowing mary had a little lamb. but really like karang guni leh :] hehehe..... oh ya. wore odd coloured socks there. luckily both look black or else kana tekan until dunno watt alr.....
15 have outing at pasir ris park.... like the 2nd time this month alr??? was like "huh???" then "woots!!!" inside the room..... 18 have to go to sentosa for dunno what thing my father's office organised..... gonna see a lot of ppl that i dunno and get bored to death again...... not looking forward to this........... praying hard....

2008-11-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

went out with shimin, nat, shihui, enjo, karyn and her boyfriend today.... go pasir ris park blade and cycle...... damn shiok especially the playground part^^.....love the slides.... so damn fun.... really. not "CHILDISH" like someone that behaves like a 5 year old.....
wish can celebrate like that on my birthday.... jealous.... my birthday sure no one go..... T.T remember ppl. 31/12.... at least leave me a tag as a b'dae present..... >< not like i asked a diamond ring from each one of your, so please???? lols... crapping and randoming.... damn tired.... going to fall asleep without kro to spice the day up.... or else don't want to post wan....
tomorrow have wushu.... HATE IT!!! DON'T WANT TO GO!!!! but cannot find reason to ponteng..... actually have, but too minor.... ppl who remembered eoy "mountain biking"?? my toenail kinda got a little seperated from the meat, so its darn painful, but no doctor's cert, so fat hope on pon-ting.....
say bye bye...

2008-11-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

sent kro off to thailand today.... ate lunch at terminal 3 after that..... food there is EX!!!! i dunno what the government is thinking. ban mian is around $1+ more than normal..... like, arh-ing there.... cannot believe my eyes....
mum's birthday also.... after lunch went to jade's house to wait until mum teach her and her brother finish.... lucky jade went first or else very little time left to play wii.... tried teaching guitar to her.... still can, not as bad as illa..... ^^ say bad about you illa.... soreee!!! but really, wii very fun to play. move hand here move hand there, like para-para exept for hand and leg movements are different....
play until shiok. have to piah on my sleep... tomorrow got outing with shimin&shihui.... go pasir ris rent bicycle slowly paddle....>< don't chiong.... yao man man lai. relax and take things in my stride.... ahh.....

2008-10-31T22:50:00.003+08:00

starting to hate cello also. fuck lah!!! i 4th november want to go somewhere else, they say cannot. like, what the hell lorh..... knn arh!!!! don't wan to go alr....
today go with some ppl to77th street @ compass point buy beanie... wan to go bugis buy cap.... hahaha.... i love my caddie, but everyone needs a cap.... >< maybe try find a cardi or somethin' like a new wallet..... mine spoilt since korea trip......
been searching through my room and found a lot of thing that are made in korea.....>< love that country as much as japan.....
looking forward to going to bugis.....
as kro said it for me, i'll be saying it myself...
"sotong, over and out!!!!"
lol....

2008-10-29T22:29:00.003+08:00

stupid wushu..... will quite in sec 2...... coach make me cry today:S...... he say THAT thing so i cried..... stressed, so tompang someone go buy beer for me..... miss the taste..... idiot never die before..... wan me wack just say, because i am a kind person^^ i know dan will be smirking when he reads this..... predicting his reaction is too easy..... stupid idiot.... sms crap and expect me to reply..... bai chi!!!!

try post picts...

2008-10-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

will qiong this post...... need eat dinner... wushu today sucks!!!!! lousy!!!! feel like killing the coach!!!!!
knn ppl injured go he still wan nag!!!!

2008-10-27T17:51:00.002+08:00

realised that i've been fighting a lot lately..... dunno if its because i feel irritated, want to show off my "skills", or just wan to fight......
speaking of skills been practising tai chee a lot lately. every time in the shower, on the bus, in the mrt and in the lift, i realise i will still do. wan to go parkway parade.... buy something from the 77th street there..... eat some swensons........ who's up for earthquake??? ^^ lol.... greedy right?? or plain hungry..... alternatively can go ben and jerry's..... i dunno..... arh!!!! crapping again.... feel like whacking someone up..... dan ask me that infernal question. ans still the same. i don't understand why boys are like that.... no matter how many times you say "no" and tell them don't ask it again, they still do..... low chance this year got chalet.... see if anyone else have.... maybe get invited or just go there crash.....>< rude to crash..... still crapping.... wan to yell "fuck!!!" in someone's face, prefably an old woman, but thats even more rude.....
voting for suicide, but dunno which day i'll be free..... ccas nearly every week.... how to go out??? cannot find anymore quiz to do.... feddup. want to sleep, but cannot sleep. want to die, but cannot die. illa still stuck at home. dunno what's happening.... she don't know how to talk tribe.... manages only english, chinese, and russian.... bodoh.....
will try to post later if i am still alive....

2008-10-26T22:25:00.006+08:00

going to pengsan soon. today go popular buy so many assesment books. parents crazy, or just have too much money to spend. either one, up to the ppl reading. kro got retained for sec 3 and i need to go to the councillor again. darn it!!!! no more freedom..... i wan an outing!!!! aunty gave a lot of clothes..... mostly hand-me-downs from my cousins but all in very good condition.... spects fied, but i'm not wearing. don't wan to risk it smashing into my face like what happened some time ago.... some picts mostly school stuff.....including me actimg like the chimpanzee....

random picts.....

2008-10-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

damn bored.... qiong finish my music..... like, blah.... now nothing to do... wait for impending doooomm......
feel like doing the 100 question quiz again.... dan up till now never do.... idiot. say will do, will do, but sooooo loooong still haven't do.....

uncovered one from stephanie's blog....
from june until now.... soree!!!!!

tagged by: stephanie
rule:People who had been tagged has to start with 10 random facts about themselves. At the end of the quiz you'll have to choose 10 people and tag them about the quiz..
1. am a girl
2. loves my guitars
3. am a tomboy
4. loves black
5. loves music
6. loves bewil
7. anti-social emo/gothic but blur sotong
8. suicidal
9. rugby!!!!
10. sleepy head??
Ten people: dan, josh, mac, jake, edwin, kro, fab and fav, illa, cyran, xinyi.

sorry to the ppl that i've sabo-ed!!!!

2008-10-25T12:30:00.000+08:00

rushing for music today. juggling between bewil's guitar and piano with freelance piano, guitar, cello[cca], violin etc. kro at pulao ubin..... yesterday night go his room sleep..... his bed and pillow very hard. 3+ then slept. some drunk bhangra singing something. i think he ended his session at around 2.45. blissful. hope his boss sends him for karouke class. definite ear-sore. felt tempted to throw down one of the empty vodka bottles i have, but scared hit other people. stupid bhangra. he'll be paying when the windows crack. basket xia....
dan very clever..... increase my workload when he never practise his piano..... now i so damn stressed because of that cock head.... whack him upside down like the bhangra....

DAMN FEDDUP!!!!!!!

that felt better.... got it off my chest already..... today still have swimming..... dun wan to go.... miss kro..... wan to sleep also.....

ARH!!!!!!!!!

BASKET!!!!!

PEKCEK AH!!!!!!

will post later....

2008-10-24T11:04:00.000+08:00

i know when i said last holidays that i wanted to paint my nails black. indeed i did, and bewil members and illa did. but very messy...... hehe.. dunno how to paint... made a mess of my table.....
realised that will have to go back to school for cello and wushu.... reluctant to do so.... like, holidays, man. let us rest lah! we not robots and neither are the teachers. then exams over we want to go outing also have no time because of ccas..... can die wan ok....
kro going for his npcc camp later..... now playing call of duty.... idiot.
will see if i wan to post later at night.....

2008-10-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

ya yas. ex ripkilltear ere..... ^^
deceided not to be so anti-social so let the ppl who wanna link to link....
short post..... gotta sleep....
old blog will be available to be viewed and laughed at.....
lazy to change template so it remains the same....
sleepy....